>> Enough!

Everything seems to be a blur. I’m a machine with no feelings. I don’t care, I don’t bother. Lodge me into a canon and blast me away to some far off land. I wish I could. The world is a strange, queer place filled with depressing creatures. The newspaper is full of negativity, the television is filled with carnage and suffering, people killing each other, violence, hatred, and recently status messages on my chat lists also depress me! I’ve cut down heavily and lost interest in the former two. The latter is not something that I will be able to get rid off very soon. It is rare to see a happy person. I cannot claim that I am the happiest person in the world, but I try to be. Well, atleast I try to keep the people around me happy.

It’s just all very boring, mechanical, repeated, overdone, trite, and hackneyed. In some ways, you could probably have a no worries attitude like the joker. That’s probably taking it to the extreme but you see what I mean. Stop cribbing about dumb things, thinking about depressing things about the past and taking ages to get over it. Looks like I’m vented out too much frustration today. I’m taking a chill pill now.

Hasta manana.

>> Judgements and walking through goop

Sometimes it’s difficult to judge people. Human emotion is something that wavers a lot. I’ve seen it going from extremely bubbly and happy to just sour and bitter. It’s weird and I’ll probably never understand it completely like I wish to. But oh well, if I was that good I would be elsewhere. Anyways today was a day of mixed emotions; not exactly for me but for one of my good friends. I really don’t know clearly what’s bothering her but I hope it goes away and she gets back to normal. So.. if you’re reading this, go cheer up and gimme a big smile buddy *grin!*. However, I plan to defer this post by a day since I’ve already blogged today and that’s possible because of this lovely feature in wordpress.

I was supposed to have a meeting at 5:30 today, and was supposed to meet someone else a bit before that. My lab got over earlier as usual and I headed to the lab to chill out on the interweb. Felt lazy to go back to my room and come back after changing outta my lab clothes so I decided to look smart and attend the meeting in my brilliant brown attire, heh. As luck would have it, the meeting was called off and that meant more time spent on the interweb. And I actually ended up sitting here till 8:45. However the last hour was kinda forced as it started pouring once I decided to head out to dinner. So there went my dinner plans, down the drain literally. It stopped raining and I took the mushy, goopy, watery walk back to hostel via the mess. Looks like the food was nearly done (nothing new) and just as I sat down to eat, we lost power (again as scheduled from 9pm for an hour; I just hardly remember things like this). So I ate what I could and realized what a phenomenal waste of effort and time it was to head to the mess to eat that stuff in the first place. Then began the mushy, goopy, watery and now dark walk back to the lab. And now, here I am typing this out.

I love the rain, but rain coupled with hunger, slimy ground, dark environment, large dirty puddles, and having to walk through it all is just plain yuck.

Before I end, I’d like you all to check out this link: http://www.ibnlive.com/news/did-you-know-india-won-two-gold-medals-at-beijing/72600-3.html

Hasta manana.

>> Digitalization

One of the things I’m in charge of for the next few months is to build a solid foundation for the years to come. And this involves plenty of notes, keeping track, updates, documenting, etc. A couple of years back this may have sounded like plenty of paper work. And it probably still does to an extent. I’ve always been a fan of digitizing what is possible and today I felt some pain in transfering stuff into ’soft’ form which was suggested and probably should have been soft in the first place.

So, I’ve decided that everything else (alteast most of it) will be ’soft’ and easily accessible and editable. Tons of stuff can be carried in your pocket. I just hope it doesn’t result in ‘chaos’ *wink*.

Last night’s dinner was amazing. Had a wonderful time chilling with a good friend. It’s amazing how time flies when you’re with special people *grin*! I wish there are many more moments such as those. Everyday would become something to look forward to. There was something we were discussing on the way back that just came to my mind. Is there a point in worrying about something that you may really have no control over? Let’s take the example we discussed. We had to be back by 10pm. We were on the bus. The bus was headed towards our destination. This is the fastest way to get back. However, there’s a feeling inside us that keeps saying, “Uh oh.. I’m probably gonna get late!!” Now, the bus ride and speed and all those factors really aren’t under our control. Regardless of anything there’s nothing we can do to go faster (unless of course you are extreme and have guerilla training). So, why worry about it at all?! (<– note the interrobang) I would say just take it easy, relax and let things come and go. Live in the present and take it easy; atleast in situations like these where nothing can really be manipulated. Well, that’s what I think. And this is my blog so I write what I think. Yeah – go me!

.. oh and I figured some interesting stuff about the word digitalization. Some places claim it’s not a word. And it’s a medical term to those who recognize its existence which means, “The administration of digitalis in a dosage schedule designed to produce and then maintain optimal therapeutic concentrations of its cardiotonic glycosides.” Cool sounding.

Hasta manana.