>> Attitudes, emotions and clarity

Alright – I’ve finally gotten down to this. Thought of starting on the new year but stuff came up. Started again a week later but then more stuff came up. Hopefully stuff stops coming up atleast until I finish this first post!

Why is the world so mean? I come across so many people everyday and the attitude that many portray is pretty disheartening. From the smallest of things. For example while waiting in line for lunch, Does anyone really care about the person behind them? I really don’t think so – take the ladle, put in whatever you want and ditch it back into the basin of liquid. And make sure it submerges completely. There ya go, made my day! Would take maybe a few extra seconds to just hand it over or keep it held for the person behind you. I personally always try to pass it on. How many of us actually hold open a door for someone behind us? How many doors do we go through every day? I go through quite a few and try my best to help out someone everyday. If not directly, indirectly. Sometimes, all you need to do is smile. It can do loads.There’s absolutely nothing wrong in offering help and it feels great to do it as well. So why do people hardly do it or care for others’ feelings? I really am not sure – ask yourself the question. A person’s attitude means a whole lot to me.

I handle so many people online everyday and although it’s difficult to convey real emotions and thoughts with clarity through the internet, it definitely provides a very interesting perspective. I love chatting and getting to know people. Sometimes typing is so much better than actually talking. Not always but sometimes. You have time to think and put down your thoughts and you can say things that you may not really say in real speech. Not because it’s not appropriate but maybe because you aren’t very comfortable with it. There are a few things that I may never actually use in oral conversation but use plenty while writing and chatting. There is more clarity and less inhibition to type out something and press the ‘enter’ button. I’ve gotten to know people better through this quite a bit. And in turn I think people have also gotten to know me a bit better in the same way. Unfortunately it’s also an excellent mask. You can really show that you are in a different state of emotions when you aren’t quite. It takes a bit of work to look through such things but it’s definitely possible for the experienced. I don’t consider myself an expert or anything in the area of ‘reading people online’ but since I work at a very large forum on a daily basis, it’s one of the essential skills that are needed. Looking into a post, reading between the lines, stopping arguments from brewing, enforcing rules, et al. Which is why I try to express my thoughts as well as emotions when I write something.

Seems like I’ve deviated a bit from nowhere into a new nowhere. I feel most of my posts are going to be like this. Some kind of vision, ideas, random venting and relaxation in my online haven.

For some reason I am looking more deeply into stuff. I’ve been trying out a lotta new things and rarely share thoughts with anyone these days. For the simple reasons that I neither find it necessary or just cannot put my trust on someone. This isn’t going to be my place to vent of course! I think I’ll conclude this first blog post with this. Much more to continue . . .

Peace.